~* THE REPRESSED SEX GODDESSES CHAT*~

Awww. I miss my Forces of Nature gals. We had set a YM confy pero helloooo Abbie, you confused me girl!!! Di ko maintindihan kung 2pm ba talaga or 3pm Phils. time... I was grinning when I read your email... naaaks, may Phils. and China time, may US time and may Canada time. Winner ka -- walking world clock!!!

So anyway, when we were waiting up for Charo and Tin we put this crazy YM status messages... Ivy's read : "Where is the sex goddess?" Mine read: "Hoy Tin the Sex Goddess, Charo the Virgin Mary, where you?", and Abbie's read: "Aileen #1 Akafellas groupie!" ahahaha! Then when Tin went online, she apparently saw our status and went "What the ?!?"

Ahhh. We are indeed getting freakin old. Ivy is married and is shouting to the world that sex is good, Mitzi proclaims she is still a virgin despite being with her honey always and forever (uyyy, aminin!), Tin is asking for tips and styles... Abbie and I can only offer our humble and limited theoretical knowledge. Abbie & Aileen = all theories, no real man. Ahahahaha!

So syempre singit pa rin ang Akafellas dba! I provided the background music... the album -- so that Mitzi my US baby can hear what the hell I'm gushing about over here in Pinas. LOL, I just remembered something... In the Still of the Night was playing and Abbie goes: Akala ko "Put Your Head In My Shoulders". Hahaha! I wuuuv you Abbie-girl, you just crack me up! Oh and I remember Abbie teasing me... She pasted the link to my blog and went: "The Groupie Diaries" LMAO! ;P And then I let them hear Jay R the papalicious boytoy, Usher of the Phils. Ahahaha! Man, Mitzi, I can't believe your Howell knows Fafa Jay R pala?! Waaaaah.

Abbie, I re-read the confy transcript and I am ROTFL about that "the grind = lambada" comment you made! *gaah, strains of the lambada intro is invading my mind. Nnnoooooo!!! Heeeeelp!!!*

Quotes for the day:

If SEX lakihan pa font!
Ayan na SEX Goddess
lets await the royal bomba star
nkahilata doing lord knows what
I'm sitting na kasi natawa ko sa Groupie Diaries
Ask Aileen! Dami nya alam ---> sa akafellas! :)
Yep BUT enough aka, PLEASE
no meat = nothing by MOUTH
i would rather RECEIVE than GIVE:-P
Give and take - the rule of thumb!
salty, spicy, sweet?
Amoy clorox daw?
ah okie ___.. check! i have that!:-P
Easter Egg Special
The V Mary texted!
Hips? What hips? Parang nag-Lambada ka?
ahehe, hindi naman mala-helicopter yan ha?
waaaah i want a boylet NOOOOOOW
down girl down
ABA! Dami alam ni ex IT Guru turned Sex Guru ah!
now wtf is C???
Making NOISE? WHAT NOISE?
laughing and the keyboard noise
tell him its for the eternal betterment of your sex life
waaaah. pano gumawa ng mahinhin na ____? *for future reference*
u murdered the poor ___banana girl
u smashed the banana
kasi as in mega gigil to the max ang lola
Dapat sensual ang music no!
SENSUAL ba yan? WTF?!
here's my fave part... ddddamn he's fabulous
medyo may konting ipin(nayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!)
soft ang gentle parang ice cream.
siguro parang liposuction, sipsip lahat hanggang kaluluwa
Mura sa US, Mitz....Aileen's 26th is coming soon. Bday gift mo na lang
made in japan! color FINK
ooh color pink naaaaaks!... pde purple?
Hanap pa kita ng Purple ....and may remote Para sa TAMAD
Buti wala si Charo or else iwan na tayo sa conf noon
ay bka mahimatay ang lola charo
girls, have to go... mass pa ko!
mass? what daaa???... how ironic!
sked another confy... the goddess is out na

*weee* That was fun! Luv yah Abbie, Mitzi, Ivy and Tin (ay hindi pala nababasa 'to ni Tin. BAWAL sa CHINA! Grrrrr.)

Virgin Charo, we missed you! Ya better be online later! Anyway, I emailed the transcript to our egroups so you won't miss out on the twisted fun we just had ;)

~*KEWLNESS*~

Right after I came home fr. mass, I got a text from Lucy:

Haha. Ate aileen, reubs is using the pics that you took. Yiheeee!

I replied:

Ay talaga?! Alin? Saan? Where? When? How? Why? Teka, naloka ako bigla.


So apparently, Reubs used the pics from the Dish gigs (which I posted on his board at the 'fellas forum = http://akafellas.proboards23.com = shameless plug!) on his myspace account. Yey! 'Katuwa naman sya :)

So I sent him a message on myspace:

Subject: wow :)

Body:

naaaaks... u're using the pix i took! 'katuwa naman :) buti naman u like your pix ;) hehehe

just lemme know if u want the original files of ur pics... i'd be glad to email 'em to u or like maybe burn u a CD with aaaaallll your pictures :)


And he replied:

Subject: RE: wow :)
Body: yeah, i waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnttt (drool)

hahahaha!

pero seryoso aileen, i honestly believe that your pictures make me look 1000000000x better than in real life. =) yan ba ang nagagawa ng kodak sayo?!

reubs =)

*teehee* isn't that adorable or what?! Para syang kid na tuwang-tuwa :) Hayyy. Kewlness. That made my day sunshiny. :)

Thanks for the text Lucy-girl! *hugz*

~*THE PASSION OF THE CHRIST*~

My mom, dad & I watched The Passion after doing our Visita Iglesia this morning. Can I just say, it's a very disturbing movie. But hey, I commend Mel Gibson for doing this movie. Nowadays, it's so hard to get a "holy" message across. Especially, when people are busy running around, working, doing all sorts of stuff. A movie is a good medium to reach everyone who's always out nowadays. I mean, how many people actually take time to read the Holy Bible nowadays? Even I am guilty of being not too keen about reading it.

I cried watching how Jesus suffered. Oh but I was a bit distracted thinking how cute Jim Caviezel was. He has such nice, soulful, dreamy eyes. And my, my, he kinda looks like an older version of Brandon Boyd (Incubus) which made me all the more distracted! Oh well. Nevertheless, I was silently crying while Jesus was scourged at the pillars, when he was on his way to Calvary and when he was crucified (*crunch*crack* arghhh. *cringe*) Now I understand why most of the people who saw this movie found it very life-changing and enlightening. I shall never look at the cross the same way ever again. Jesus truly loves mankind. Whoa. 'Makes you really want to be a better person.

~*DISH GIG (again!)*~

After a long hiatus from the akafellas gig scene, I watched them again at feels-like-home Dish Powerplant last night. I managed to drag along 3 of my officemates who actually wanted to have a girls' night-out since Tues. was the last working day of the week. Eh I said I had a gig to attend, so therefore, why not join me (so that finally they could understand what's my big fuss over the fellas...)? They agreed. So basically, I got kinda nervous for the guys -- will them newbies like the fellas or not? It was especially hard coz their general idea of the guys is that they sang Bongga Ka Day. That's it. And they find Bongga a bit annoying. So I told Robi, "You guys better debunk the Bongga Ka myth and impress 'em!"

Well, my tension went away when I saw them being quite amused by Karl's melismatic singing. Comment on Reuben: PERFORMER daw talaga ha. Well, one can't help but notice his super give-to-the-max grooving. At aba, ang PauloNav, bumenta! They liked his suave, smooth singing style. Sexy daw. Naks. I now finally get why the girls are sooo charmed by Pau's singing ... super mega delayed reaction ba?*teehee* Strange though, coz usually, newbies would rave over Myke. But since Myke was a bit spaced out last night and what with his way too long segue to his pingpong thingymajig, errmmm, nainip na my officemates. Seriously, he looked a bit off last night. He wasn't even blinking at all so they were asking me if he was drugged or somethin'. And waah, Myke looks way too thin for me now! I like his pre-Mossimo body better! Now even his cheeks are sunken na. He's not even buff-looking at all, although I'm sure the 6-pack is still there. My officemates even said na mas pang Mossimo pa daw yung bod ni Reuben! (Now THAT's a thought! Hmmm. Pwede, pwede...) Well anyway, they heartily laughed over Robi and Myke's comic spiels. Generally speaking, they were wowed by the fellas! I once told this officemate of mine that a "cure" for her depression would be to watch an akafellas gig coz that's how I became happy last year during my hellish depressing love life. So last night, she said naman na sumaya naman daw sya from watching the guys. Yey!

Teehee, I just remembered some more kwento after I read Hogi's blog: So Robi was doing a segue na for Bongga Ka Day... I realized that they were gonna sing that and at the same time, Bianx (my perky officemate) also realized that they were indeed about to sing Bongga. Funny, coz sabay kaming immediately napasabi ng: "NOoOoOo...". And ackkk, apparently, our violent reaction was quite loud (disclaimer: si Bianx yung malakas na nag-no, hindi akoooo! ehehehe;) ) that Pau and Robi reacted too! Ahahaha! They decided to "delay" our agony and sang something else muna. Ehehehe.

Awww. I was happy last night ;) I got hugz, hugz, hugz and kisses from everyone... from Hogi, Sybs, Peachy when they arrived... from huggy-wuggy Robi who really appreciated the stuff that I gave him and the rest of the guys last night. "Wow, no one has ever done this for us! I'm touched!". Si Reubs "Wow, photo paper pa!" And he asked how I did the carpal tunnel font thingie. Hehe. Ikey was also sweet. Si Myke, ayun, spaced out "Yeah, thank you ha. Ah, ano ba yun?" Wahaha.


Yey, finally managed to have a NEW pic with PauloNav. Gaah. My last pic taken with him was waaaay back in Philharmonic Guess gig last year. Whoa, I luvvvv the brown hair of Reubs! It looked great on him. I want to have that shade of brown! I want! I want! Aww, and I finally saw Huggy-wuggy Robi again. *Weee* Enuf said ;)



TOP: Me and my officemates: Vic, Sherlz, Bianx.
BOTTOM: Charo and her friend Bryce (who likes Robi, yihee.)


With my fave fellas Reubs and Robi!


With Hogi and Robi :)



Finally, a new pic with Pau! ;)

~* I GOT IT BAD *~

Yuck. I got it bad. This is freaking me out. Gaaaah.


When you feel it in your body
You found somebody who
Makes you change your ways
Like hanging wit' your crew
Said you act like you ready
But you don't really know
And everything in your past
You wanna let it go

I been there, done it, humped around
After all that, this is what I found
Nobody wants to be alone
If you're touched by the words in this song
Then maybe

You got it, you got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
(Ooh) You got it, you got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when
You stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
'Cos all you think about
You got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' 'bout somebody else
You got it bad

When you say that you love 'em
And you really know everything
That used to matter don't matter no more
Like my money all my cars
You can have it all and
Flowers, cards and candy I do it just 'cos
I said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know I really adore you

All my people that know what's going on
Look at your mate help me sing my song
Tell her I'm your man
You're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies, say I'm your girl
You're my man
Promise to love you the best I can

See I've been there, done it, humped around
After all that, this is what I found
Every one of y'all are just like me
It's too bad that you can't see
That you got it bad

You got it, you got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
(Ooh) You got it, you got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when
You stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
'Cos all you think about
You got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' 'bout somebody else
You got it bad.

~ You Got It Bad, Usher

~oO0Oo~

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?

~ Why Can't I, Liz Phair

~*FALLING... TSK, TSK... *~

I hate this, I hate this, I hate this.

I can't even friggin' walk around the, ummm, place without my heart racing like crazy coz I am already half-petrified at the thought of bumping into him. Gaaah. I think I've got it bad. The more freaked out I am when he is, at the very least, visible to me at some distance, the more it terrifies me that this is becoming too real, too significant. It doesn't seem to be just a lil crush anymore. I can feel this object of my affection will turn out to be the same way as what I felt with ITY. After college, I have never ever found someone who measured up to the qualities of this crush of mine back in college. And then here comes this, uhh, dude from, uhh, basta, and freakishly, he fits the bill almost perfectly. And then I find out where his province is and I'm like, "Holy crap this is too freaky! Didn't I say to myself waaay back in college that I wish I'd meet a guy from ____ (*gaah, I'll be totally busted if he reads this so I'll leave it blank* I am still scared that he might breeze by this blog...) coz they seem to be/known to be that "breed" (ackkk, parang dogs. oh well, the right term escapes me at the moment...) of men who are just so super-kaduper lambing. And super lambing guys are really my no. 1 weakness. *sigh*. I just melt over super-sweet charmers.

I hate this, I hate this, I hate this.

I am even too shocked to break into a smile when I see him. And I hate it when he just suddenly springs right in front of me. I just go "gaaaah" silently as I hurriedly walk away. The key is to scamper away as fast as it is humanly possible while donning high heels. And then I end up muttering under my (short) breath, while crazily palpitating: " I hate this, I hate this, I hate this." I was not like this last December. This is baaaad. I've got it baaad.

Oh well. I have mastered the art of acting nonchalant when I bump into him. So I guess it's all good. But then I hate the feeling of butterflies in my stomach. It tends to be quite stressful if it happens almost everyday.

Oh, and did I mention that I felt jealous tonight coz uhh, basta. Huhuhu. Selos ako. :'(

Man, I freakin' hate this!!! Stupid, stupid love.

Gaaah. This is gonna be the death of me. Stupid love. Of course it wouldn't be stupid anymore if the feeling is mutual, right? But then he's.... man, I can't explain this anymore. This is turning out to be a very complex emotion.

So help me God.

~*LET ME REVEAL YOUR SEXUAL IDENTITY...*~

I got this from my highschool e-groups this morning:


According to studies, the first letter of your first name reveals your sexual identity... What do you think?


My sympathies to anyone whose name begins with N. *pat, pat*



-A-


You are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action. You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up front person. When it comes to sex, it's action that counts not obscure hints. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important to you. You find the chase and challenge of the "hunt" invigorating. You are passionate and sexual as well as being much more adventurous than you appear; however, you do not go around advertising these qualities. Your physical needs are your primary concern.


-B-

You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as an _expression of the affection of your lover. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your _expression of endearments and particularly when it comes to lovemaking. You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can control your appetite and abstain from sex if need be. You require new sensations and experiences. You are willing to experiment.


-C-

You are a very social individual, You must be able to talk to your sex partner before. You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good looking. You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sexual and sensual, needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to go for long periods without sexual activity. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing without.


-D-

Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full steam ahead in pursuit. You do not give up your quest easily. You are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You are highly sexual, passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvement, sometimes possessive and jealous. Sex to you is a pleasure to be enjoyed. You are stimulated by the eccentric and unusual, having a free and open.


-E-


Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion for a bedmate. You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important than the sexual act for you, but once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. When you don't have a good lover to fall asleep with, you will fall asleep with a good book. (Sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book.)


-F-


You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once omitted, you are very loyal. You are sensuous, sexual, and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are your favorite fantasy pastime. You
can be a very generous lover.


-G-

You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover. You respond to a lover who is your intellectual equal or superior, and one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to reach the peak of erotic stimulation, because you work at it meticulously. You can be extremely active sexually that is, when you find the time. Your duties and responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have difficulty getting emotionally close to a lover, but no trouble getting close sexually.


-H-


You seek a mate who can enhance your reputation and earning ability. You will be very generous to your lover once you have attained a commitment. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the commitment,
though, you tend to be frugal in your spending and dating habits and equally cautious in your sexual involvement. You are a sensual and patient lover.


-I-


You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... Even worshipped. You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of sexual _expression. You bore easily and thus require sexual adventure and change. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes downright lustful.


-J-

You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your _expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the well. Only you see her. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated.


-K-


You are totally fucking marvelous!


-L-

You are very romantic, idealistic, and somehow you believe that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate or attracting people who have unusual troubles. You see yourself as your lover's savior. You are sincere, passionate, lustful, and dreamy. You can't help falling in love. You fantasize and get turned on by movies and magazines. You do not tell others of this secret life, nor of your sexual fantasies.


-M-


You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense.. You believe in total sexual freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of sexual energy is inexhaustible. You also enjoy mothering your mate.


-N-


You are crap in bed.


-O-


You are very interested in sexual activities yet secretive and shy about your desires. You can re-channel much of your sexual energy into making money and/or seeking power. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy. You are a passionate, compassionate, sexual lover, requiring the same qualities from your mate. Sex is serious business; thus you demand intensity diversity, and are willing to try anything or anyone. Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in check.


-P-


You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of doing anything that might harm your image or reputation. Appearances count, therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your enemy; a good fight stimulates those sex vibes. You are free of sexual hang-ups. You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing things. You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification.


-Q-


You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you, sexually or otherwise. You are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people of other ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and lots of conversation to turn you on and keep you going.


-R-


You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal the smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is very important to you. You have to be proud of your partner. You are privately very sexy, but you do not bed, you are willing to serve as teacher. Sex is important; you can be a very demanding playmate.


-S-

You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy, sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take your love life very
seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come along.


-T-


You are very sensitive, private, and sexually passive; you like a partner who takes the lead. Music, soft lights and romantic thoughts turn you on. You fantasize, but do not tend to fall in and out of love easily.. When in love, you are romantic, idealistic, mushy, and extremely intense. You enjoy having your senses and your feelings stimulated, titillated, and teased... You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit your dreams, oftentimes all in your own head.


-U-

You are enthusiastic and idealistic when in love. When not in love, you are in love with love, always looking for someone to adore. You see romance as a challenge. You are a roamer and need adventure, excitement, and freedom.
You deal in potential relationships. You enjoy giving gifts and enjoy seeing your mate looking good. Your sex drive is strong and you desire instant gratification. You are willing to put your partner's pleasures above your own.


-V-


You are individualistic, and you need freedom, space, and excitement. You wait until you know someone well before committing yourself. Swing someone means psyching him/ her out. You feel a need to get into his head to see
what makes him/ her tick. You are attracted to eccentric types. Often there is an age difference between you and your lover. You respond to danger, thrills, and suspense. The gay scene turns you on, even though you yourself may not be a participant.


-W-


You are very proud, determined, and you refuse to take no for an answer when pursuing love. Your ego is at stake. You are romantic, idealistic, and often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner as he or she really is. You feel deeply and throw all of yourself into your relationships. Nothing is too good for your lover. You enjoy playing love games.


-X-


You need constant stimulation because you bore quickly. You can handle more than one relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut off your mind. You talk while you make love. You can have the greatest love affairs, all by yourself, in your own head.


-Y-

You are sexual, sensual, and very independent. If you can't have it your way, you will forgo the whole thing. You want to control your relationships, which doesn't always work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation, enjoy necking and spending hours just touching, feeling and exploring. However, if you can spend your time making
money, you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the moment. You need to prove to yourself and your partner what a great lover you are. You want feedback on your performance. You are an open, stimulating, romantic bedmate.


-Z-

For you, it is business before pleasure. If you are in any way bothered by career, business, or money concerns, you find it very hard to relax and get into the mood. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and are capable of much sensuality. But you never lose control of your emotions. You are very careful and cautious before you give your heart away and your body, for that matter. Once you make the commitment, though, you stick like glue.