~* ANGER MANAGEMENT EXERCISE NO. 2 *~

Bitter
by Jill Sobule

I could slip, I could fall
In that mean and awful hall
With the other jealous bitches
And the bitter grumbling men

I could sneer, I could glare say that
life is so unfair And the one who
made it, made it `Cuz her breasts
were really big

Well I don't wanna get bitter
I don't wanna turn cruel
I don't wanna get old before I have to

I could bitch, I could moan
Say I want to be left alone
But that's not really true,
Because I like my time with you

Till you rant and you rave
Wishing fat folks to their grave
But I feel sorry for them
You say they get what they deserve

Well I don't wanna get bitter
I don't wanna turn cruel
I don't wanna get old before I have to

I don't wanna get jaded
Petrified and weighted
I don't wanna get bitter like you
Like you, with the darts in your eyes
Like you, with disdain for mankind
I was charmed, now I wonder

Well I don't wanna get bitter
I don't wanna turn cruel
I don't wanna get old before I have to
So I'll smile with the rest
I'll wish everyone the best
And know the one who made it,
Made it cuz she was actually pretty good
Well I don't wanna get bitter
I don't wanna turn cruel
I don't wanna get old before I have to

~* MUSICAL TAG *~

I've been musical tagged by Abbie and Mitzi!


MY CURRENT RANDOM SONGS:

The Scientist by Coldplay/Natasha Bedingfield - one of my ultimate faves

"Nobody said it was easy. Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh let's go back to the start."

The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice - super poignant. Hearing it played in Closer (starring Natalie Portman and Jude Law) made me like it more.

"And so it is just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me most of the time.
And so it is, the shorter story:
No love, no glory.
No hero in her sky.
Can't take my eyes off you... "

The Trouble with Love by Kelly Clarkson - one of my fave tracks in the Love Actually soundtrack.

"The trouble with love is it can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is it doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call."

Here with Me by Dido - ahh, the Max and Liz song from Roswell. I even have the version with sound bites from Roswell spoken by the lovers. The song offered an entirely new perception to me when I heard it in Love Actually -- that scene when Kiera Knightly saw the wedding video shot by the groom's best friend. "To me you are perfect..." *sigh*

"I won't go, I won't sleep
I can't breathe until you're resting here with me..."

Walking After You by Foo Fighters - the only Foo Fighter song that I like. I think it was in the X-Files soundtrack. I love the breathy vocals and lulling melody.

"I cannot be without you, matter of fact..."

Firewoman by Hungry Young Poets - still having a Barbie Almabis hang-over.

"Coz I've seen the world from down there
and it wasn't a pretty sight.
Now the circle is turning
Are you armed for the fight?
I wanna be a firewoman.
I'll water down your desire.
Coz I know this love is a killer."

Soon by Moonpools and Caterpillars - always nice to hear

"How was I to know
No one told me so
I just landed here and struggled to get by
Nothing much to see
Oh so naive
and then it hit me like it has 1,000 times

One day soon its going to happen to you
And when it does it wont be pretty."

Sweetest Goodbye by Maroon5 - two different versions from Songs About Jane and Love Actually soundtrack.

"Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
the rhythm of the rain that drops
and coincides with the beating of my heart.

How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
when you get home?"

WHAT IS THE TOTAL AMOUNT OF MUSIC IN YOUR PC?

My Music folder is 5.67 GB with 1,832 files. Plus My Shared Folder for Kazaa which contains newly-downloaded songs and incomplete DLs is 437MB with 270 files.

THE LAST CD I BOUGHT:

Keane's Hopes and Fears - I bought it because of the song This is The Last Time

THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO BEFORE THIS MESSAGE?

Texas' I'll See it Through. Track 9. The Love Actually OST is currently playing on my CD player.

5 SONGS YOU LISTEN TO THAT MEAN A LOT TO YOU:

1. Wish You Were Here by Incubus - it's a hero song
2. You Won't See Me Crying by Passage - the bullsh*t duet song
3. Out of Reach by Gabrielle & ...On the Radio by Nelly Furtado (tie!) - asswipe songs
4. Let Me Be the One by Jimmy Bondoc & What If by Babyface (tie!) - T2 songs...
5. Strange and Beautiful by Aqualung - most fave Wicker Park song that gave me the quote "Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first. Sometimes the first thing you want never comes. I know that waiting is all you can do sometimes."
   

WHO ARE THE PEOPLE YOU'RE GOING TO PASS THIS ON?

Tin
Charo
Fay
Kiko
Teena
Mic

~* ANGER MANAGEMENT EXERCISE NO. 1 *~

Please keep in mind that I am only a biatch when provoked.

TEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU

1. I hate your being an asswipe. It's unbelievably appalling coz I thought you have grown up. Apparently, the vodka sprite impaired my judgement.

2. I hate you coz that was like "oops, u f***ing did it again" to me.

3. I hate you coz now I can't sing without ever thinking of OTB. And OTB memories are baaaad.

4. I hate that you come in and out of my life anytime you want.

5. I hate how I now can't wear my cool fuchsia Jamaican Dream Terranova shirt coz I friggin' remember you everytime I see that shirt in my closet.

6. I hate how we looked so good in those pictures on my fone. It kills me. Could've been so beautiful. Could've been so right. I'll never hold what could have been on a cold and lonely night.

7. I hate you coz you have made me lose my trust in the sincerity of men.

8. I hate you coz you have ultimately made me jaded.

9. I hate how I remember you everytime I see a black Honda car.

10. I hate it but I think I will still apply the law of superseding actions to you.

~* IS IT BETTER TO BE KIND THAN TO BE HONEST? *~

Sometimes it is better to be kind than to be honest. Operative word: "sometimes". I think most of the time, when it comes to serious vital information and heartfelt opinions, it is better to be honest than to be kind. In that context, I have always been telling my friends that I prefer the cold hard (albeit cruel) truth than sugar-coated bullcrap. I mean, don't bullsh*t me please. I may look fragile (well, I AM fragile still in a way...) but I can take the honest biting truth. Give it to me. I can handle it. You may break my heart to little pieces by saying it but I will surely love you more for being totally honest with me and not BS'ing me for fear of hurting me. What I don't know won't hurt me, right? But then again, I'd hate to be taken for a fool. Like, here I am living my days and there you are hiding something from me. It is sweet and thoughtful of my friends to think of sheltering me from further pain by hiding what they know from me. But thank God, they know me better than that! It's amusing that my friends sometimes secretly debate amongst themselves whether to tell me something or not. In the end, the side that says "Oh let's go friggin tell her" wins. I love them more for their total honesty. I am posting this to show my sincere appreciation for my friends. Ya know who you are dearies. ;-) You truly are friends for keeps. *hugz*

~ * ROAD TRIP! *~

Congratulations to my college friends Aga & Jovan -- brand new mom & dad to baby boy Keith Xander! :)

Got a text from Aga yesterday that she just gave birth to a bouncing baby boy last Feb 10 at St. Luke's. I texted my other friends She and Rose and asked them when we' re gonna go visit Aga. We decided to visit her after office hours. And so, that started our mini ala-Amazing Race road trip last night...

5:30 PM - 7:10PM: San Pedro, Laguna to Pasay Road, Makati. Since I was on vacation leave yesterday, I came all the way from our house to the central busines district.

7:10PM- 7:30PM: Pasay Rd. to Enterprise Bldg. in Paseo de Roxas. Being a Friday, traffic was (as usual) of epic proportions and taxi cabs were to kill for. Thus, I decided that I would get to Rose's office in The Enterprise way faster travelling by foot than by wheels (which one would manage to get after 10 years of waiting at the curb). So: hello walkway! So basically, I walked from EDSA to Paseo de Roxas via the walkway.

7:30PM-9:45PM: Paseo de Roxas, Makati to St. Luke's Hospital in QC. Around 8ish, we were still pretty much stuck in Makati traffic. We stopped for awhile so that She could switch seats with Rose. So from then on, it was She who drove Rose's car. We avoided EDSA like the plague and traveled through the inner streets of i-don't-know-where. Our objective was to go to Wilson St. in Greenhills wherein, from there, She knows pretty much which way to go to St. Luke's. Suffice it to say that we got lost along the way somewhere in Kalentong. We kept popping up in Shaw Blvd. after driving for a coupla minutes. There we were: She who was half-hungry (coz she snacked a bit when she got to Makati), Rose who was trying real hard to read the map and navigate, and me (at the backseat) who was absolutely famished coz my last meal was an 11am lunch. Good thing Rose had some Pringles left for me to stave off my hunger.

After some time, Rose quit on the yey-girl-power-we-can-read-maps idea. We stopped about 3 to 4 times to ask for directions. (Yes. When us women get lost, we know it is more sensible to ask for directions instead of driving around aimlessly feeling macho and pretending you actually know where you're going. hehe.) There's this cool manong (Manong, you're THA MAN!) who managed to give us detailed and really helpful directions. But still, after some point, we got sorta lost again. teehee.

See, with all that driving around, we came to realize why people in the Amazing Race bite off each other's head when they're navigating. And we came to accept the fact that it's just darn hard to read that stupid unhelpful map! *LOL* We managed to realize some of the benefits of our little comedy of errors:

1. We brushed up our people-skills! Ya see, all that stopping and rolling down of windows to ask strangers for directions sure put our lovely people-skills to test.
2. We exercised our mental faculties! Figuring out where we were by looking for clues like the jeepney sign boards, store signages, green street signs, arches and marquees... deciding whether to go straight, left, right or back... chatting while driving... our senses were on full-gear!
3. Patience is a virtue! Despite finding ourselves lost, we never lost our cool. We were cracking jokes and laughing at our predicament the entire time. Totally fun road trip talaga!
4. We learned how to survive! We were three pretty hungry gals inside the car. We only got to eat dinner at 11PM AFTER we visited Aga in St. Luke's.

9:45PM-10:30PM: St. Luke's Hospital. Finally! Just when Aga started wondering where we were, we arrived at St. Luke's. We watched the digital vid of her baby from the moment it came out into the world (naaaks!) until it was in Aga's arms all cleaned up and umbilical cord-free. Geez. It made me all terrified about giving birth. And whoa, we realized that we are indeed getting old! Yikes! Some of my friends are already married/pregnant/with kids! Can I just let out a little *eeeek!*? hehehe. I wonder IF and WHEN I'll ever get to that stage in my life... hmm.

10:30PM-10:45PM: St. Luke's to Thai in a Box at Tomas Morato/E. Rod (I dunno basta somewhere there!) Ahhh. At last! We peed (excuse me) and ordered our food when we got there. (Abbie: I suddenly missed our TIB days in Makati!!!)

11:45PM-1:AM: QC to Makati. We lingered for about an hour in Makati as we hopped from Dusit to Intercon to make an unscheduled stop. *secret!*

1AM-1:30AM: Makati to San Pedro, Laguna. Because, syempre, my friends love me *hehe* they brought me all the way home even if Rose lived in Las Pinas and She lived in Sucat. Geez, Rose probably got home around2:30AM.


So there--our little city road trip after not having seen each other for more than seven (or more?) months! These college friends of mine aren't that into cam-whoring though so even if I brought my digicam, they did not want me to take any pics! hehe, camera shy!;-)

~* MUSIC AT KM. 19 *~

Went out with my best buds from high school-- Abbie, Tin and Charu -- last night. Since I'm on vacation leave today, it was alright to have come home at around 3am this morning. Tin and I met up with Abbie and Charu at ATC and then together, we proceeded to 19 EAST at Sucat (the former Galo's grill back then). We got there around 10:30PM in time to watch True Faith and Barbie's Cradle perform.

strong ice, true faith

True Faith was good. It was my first time to see them perform live. I liked the songs they played-- 80's new wave genre and 90's rock (most definitely OUR type of music back in high school!). Can't quite fathom though the weird dance steps of Medwin (vocalist).


barbie's cradle (new guy on electric guitar?)

The next performer was Barbie's Cradle (the MAIN reason why we went all the way to Sucat). This was only the second time I saw them live. The first time was back in 2003 at Enchanted Kingdom (Charu, Mitzi: remember that? such fun!) . Back then, I was totally smitten by the angelic presence of pixie-like Barbie Almabis. Last night, I was still mesmerized by her. Gaaahd, my lesbian tendencies are showing! *LOL* Kidding, kidding!!!


there's something about barbie...

There's really something about her radiating warm aura that reminds me of dainty pretty little fairies. And her dreamy voice (imagine Lisa Loeb's but cuter) just lulls you to a sheer peaceful state. Basta, it's such an nice experience watching Barbie's Cradle perform live. I sooo like this band forever! I liked her style of singing even way back her Hungry Young Poets days. Funny though how I don't even own any of their albums...

Loved it when she sang Firewoman (my ULTIMATE fave - she was still in Hungry Young Poets back then). They had about 3 encores since the crowd just couldn't get enough of their music. She gladly obliged. Unforgettable was their great version of Unchained Melody. As in SUPER.

Of course, if we Forces gals are out, it's a sin not to snap any pictures. I brought my digicam and Tin also brought hers. Ergo, cam-whoring to the second power...

~* IN (DIS)HONOR OF THE BLAH DAY *~

Can I skip this friggin' month altogether? *gaaah*

Didn't I mention before that the soundtrack of Wicker Park rocks? Check out the sound bites at amazon.com. A wicked version of Against All Odds by Postal Service is one of my pleasant discoveries in the soundtrack. The trance/techno/hypnotic treatment of the song kicks ass.

~ o0O0o ~

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first. Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes. I know that waiting is all you can do sometimes. ~ Strange & Beautiful (I Put a Spell on You) by Aqualung, Wicker Park OST