::. THE CARNAGE .::

Well Kanye West says that "now that don't kill me can only make me stronger." Sure. Let me save that mental thought for inspiration.

Goodbye to you...
I received the bad news on March 6. Feb 7, 2009. Wow. Save the date everyone.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Carnage. Total carnage. My heart bled into a million pieces. I was devastated. Massive heart attack. I thought I was gonna shit in my pants and vomit at the same time. I suddenly had an upset stomach, cold hands and a burning feeling on my neck amidst my palpitating heart. Now I'm currently having emotional stress-induced asthma symptoms.

What hurts the most...
It was a horrible feeling to have every memory rush back in my mind at lightning speed. And even in random unguarded moments, a snippet of memory cruelly sneaks into my thoughts. That's torture. I wish I could have something like that lacunar amnesia thing in the "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind."

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been

Much has been said...
Why did it have to be harder than it had to be?

It wasn't supposed to end with us just walking away

Can't describe the way it felt
When you left said you goodbyes
It just seems crazy for me to think
That i found love the same time
But we all know how it all wraps up in the end

You know that terrible feeling when it suddenly dawns on you that you have been abandoned and you have been waiting for three months for nothing? I can't see why I put my hopes up and led myself to believe that he will be different that time when I knew full well that he will always be who he was.

Light years away...
It's almost like you had it planned
It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said
"Hey, I'm about to screw you over, big time"

It's how you wanted it to be
It's like you played a joke on me
And I lost a friend
In the end

We've never been lovers now we're not even friends. Such a shame. He would have been a nice friend to keep.

You won't see me crying...
This will always be a tainted song. There will never be a time that I will not remember when I hear this song.

Duets suck.

Tell me it's not over now, will you?
So I won't be hangin' around
And you won't see me crying

Sorry...
I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
And I take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
And call him up for more

Crumbs. I felt like I was eating crumbs he throws my way whenever he felt like it. Oh what a lovely feeling, isn't it?


Tomorrow...
I dont know how I'll feel tomorrow
I dont know what to say tomorrow
Tomorrow is a different day
And I know I'm not ready
Maybe tomorrow

Crazy love...
Tonight I'm gonna break away
Just you wait and see
I've never been imprisoned by
A faded memory

Must. Stop. Being. Stupid. I know that.

No ordinary morning...
If there was nothing that I could say
Turned your back and you just walked away
Leaves me numb inside I think of you
Together is all I knew

We moved too fast but I had no sign
I would try to turn the hands of time
Then look to you for the reason why
The love we had passed me by

In the darkness that surrounds me now
there is no peace of mind
Your careless words undo me,
leave the thought of us behind